MY GRIEF JOURNEY

It is a special time as Easter is upon us and we reflect on those that are no longer with us. It is a time that we draw on our spiritual strengths to deal with our grief and honor those that are not physically with us.

It is times like this that we appear to be a little out of sorts and experience what is commonly known as “widow brain”. You go into a room and then look around you and ask why am I here and what am I searching for. It can be somewhat stressful when you ask yourself how did I get here.

Christmas and all the other special occasions are times when I become angry as it is not clear to me why I passed before Debra. A question that I don’t know the answer to and I may never know. I have turned to my faith/spirituality but the answer still is not there.

It is also a time where I deal with the most sadness and my loneliness levels reach highs that make it difficult to manage. My journey becomes one that is wrought with loneliness and I continue to search for what is needed.

It is a time when I need to draw on my spirituality for some of the answers. Answers that may never come but I can ask for guidance to make the most of a journey that I know will continue.

I just need to stay strong.